One Year Ago...

I can't believe a year has already gone by since Razzle's passing.

I guess the weirdest part about a year going by is that, for the past year I've been able to look back and think, "oh last year at this time..." and recall an event when Razzle was still with us. It's like time stood still around here as far as Razzle's things. His cage with his igloo, wheel and his toys are all in the same spot. The 'message board' in our kitchen still has his medicine schedule on it. I just haven't wanted to let go of him.

His ashes were even still in the black container from the crematorium. I have been looking for a year for the perfect "urn", but nothing seemed perfect enough. I wanted to make one, but I could never find the right materials. I finally bought a very natural looking piece of pottery that I thought was nice, but it took me about 6 months to get used to it. It also took me that long to get the nerve to open up the black container to tranfer the ashes. I did that today, at 11:49am, the time that Razzle passed over to the Rainbow Bridge.

It was hard to see the little packet of dust and bone, but I think I needed to wait a year before I could have done this. I placed some of Razzle's blankies, along with a letter I wrote him, into the urn and carefully nestled the packet of ashes in. Steve and I then told Razzle how much we miss him and how he will never be forgotten.

I think the urn is fitting for Razzle. It's very natural looking, with etchings that look like quills. I especially like the twig with the curly-q sprig. It's very original. Just like Razzle.

Happy Birthday, dear Razzle

Today would have been Razzle's 4th birthday. July 3rd isn't the day Razzle was born (I don't know that date) but is the day that I got Razzle and my life changed forever.

Steve and I will be celebrating tonight with a special dinner and angel food cake for our little angel. I'll update more tonight.

Happy Birthday, my sweet Razzle!!

Tonight we had a special dinner of sushi and reminisced about the first time Razzle tried shrimp. He went crazy over it and proceeded to anoint furiously, ending up with a huge frothy mess of shrimp gunk all over his quills.
So, in honor of Razzle, we had to get some shrimp maki rolls.

We were hungry when we ordered (delivery! Gotta love Chicago!), and ended up with waaay more food than we really needed. You know you ordered a lot of food when they include four sets of chopsticks.


There was, of course, birthday cake as well. Angel food cake with strawberries and cream. Mmmm. And yes, I made those little angel food "baskets" from scratch!

Happy Birthday, little angel!

We sure miss you, little pumpkin. Things are just not the same without you. I hope that once in a while, you look down from your big meal-worm field in the sky and know how much we think of you and love you.