It's been 10 days. In some ways, I can't believe 10 days have already gone by. In other ways, it feels like 10 years. I miss Razzle so much and July 5th seems so long ago now. It feels like forever since I held him. It's still hard to believe he's really gone.
On the evening of Razzle's passing, we had a "birthday" party for Razzle. Razzle's birthday was Tuesday July 3rd, but we had planned on having a birthday party that Thursday night when my friend Kathleen and her boys, Connor & Gavin were visiting. Little did we know what would happen that morning.
We still had the cake in honor of Razzle. It could be said it was still Razzle's birthday...the day he was born into an angel. I hope he was celebrating with all his new friends...
On Monday night, we had an on-line Candlelight Tribute ceremony at www.RainbowsBridge.com. Click on the photo to see Razzle's entry:
Razzle's Candlelight ceremony
It was also the same day I got Razzle's ashes back. His ashes came in a plain black metal canister with the words "Always Remembered" in gold.
The canister is meant to be temporary, with the idea that you will buy a nicer urn. I've been looking on-line at urns and have not seen anything I felt was "Razzley". So I've decided to make my own urn. I have to think about what I want and design it, then go to the art store and get the materials I need. I'm thinking of a small wooden box, decorated with craft leaves and some mini pinecones I picked up several weeks ago when visiting the Chicago Botanical Gardens. The mini pinecones reminded me of Razzle.
It's been hard looking at a cold, metal canister knowing that the contents inside were once my baby. I haven't had the courage to open up the lid. Just looking at the canister itself has been hard enough.
The canister resides inside Razzle's igloo for now, cushioned by his favorite blankies. I kept hoping that I'd wake up from this bad dream and go over to Razzle's igloo like I did every morning, lift it up and see my sweet bundle of quills looking up at me with his cute little look that says:
"I'm FINE mom! You can leave me alone now!"